Today starts a BIG performance art piece that I am doing over the next 13-days, March 14-26th, and I really hope you follow along… I figured I would take the time to explain what, and why I am doing this… so I’m baring my soul. To be honest, I haven’t been doing very well lately… […]
I really don’t know what day it is… or even what time of day or night, it might be… How long do I have left? I don’t know… How much longer do I have to hold on? It’s been so long, and so much has happened… So much has been lost along the way. But, […]
I think this ship is going to sink… It’s hard to motivate myself to even write this… I’m tired, worn out, hungry, and I feel like I’m losing it! But I gotta get these messages out, maybe there’s someone out there… The food has run out. I’ve got the last handful of beans soaking in […]
The machinery is broken.. has seized up, or maybe… the engine’s burned out! I have no idea what happened to it, I’ve examined it and everything seems fine as far as I can tell, but honestly I have no idea what I’m looking at, or how to diagnose the problem. Everything seems to be in […]
I don’t know what to do… I thought that if I just stuck with it, keep pushing on, keep doing, keep my eye on the prize… I really thought I would get there. I really thought I would succeed. But now it’s all crumbling down around me, there’s no solid ground to stand on… I […]
My imposter syndrom has really been fucking with me lately. I mean who am I to be dreaming this big? Why do I think I’m qualified to do any of this? Who am I doing all of this for? I thought it was for me, but now I see I focused more on others and […]
I miss the sun, the warmth, the embrace… all I’ve known is the greyness, the fog, not knowing, not seeing what’s ahead, the fearful mystery of it all brings the panic back… memories… I close my eyes and try to bring it back. Was it a dream? Have I ever really known what it was […]
Today I found a couple beans of coffee left that I missed. I thought those were gone long ago. I managed to boil some water, I made a small amount of water to drink and while it was still hot I crushed the coffee beans between my fingers and let them soak. It’s nice… the […]
I thought I saw someone today… or was it a mirage? I thought I saw someone bobbing up and down in the waves of the sea. I thought I could help… even though I’m helpless as well… I tried to throw out a line, a rope, but it wasn’t long enough, it didn’t reach far […]