Another day rationing. Another day in the cold and wet. Fishing has not been fruitful. What was I thinking? Promises of better days are a lie in the present. Should I have come on this voyage? We have lost so many. So many. It is now just the captain and I. I man every station […]
Wounds don’t heal the same anymore… The salt keeps it clean… maybe that’s one benefit to all this? Scar tissue is tougher… Does madness bring clarity?
The only thing darker than the sea around me is when I close my eyes. But the lightning flashes through my eyelids… almost feels like small flickers from a flame… I can, if only for a moment, feel its warmth… Oh to be dry and cozy… it would be heaven… Nirvana is more than a […]
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I thought I saw someone today… or was it a mirage? I thought I saw someone bobbing up and down in the waves of the sea. I thought I could help… even though I’m helpless as well… I tried to throw out a line, a rope, but it wasn’t long enough, it didn’t reach far […]
Today I found a couple beans of coffee left that I missed. I thought those were gone long ago. I managed to boil some water, I made a small amount of water to drink and while it was still hot I crushed the coffee beans between my fingers and let them soak. It’s nice… the […]
I miss the sun, the warmth, the embrace… all I’ve known is the greyness, the fog, not knowing, not seeing what’s ahead, the fearful mystery of it all brings the panic back… memories… I close my eyes and try to bring it back. Was it a dream? Have I ever really known what it was […]
My imposter syndrom has really been fucking with me lately. I mean who am I to be dreaming this big? Why do I think I’m qualified to do any of this? Who am I doing all of this for? I thought it was for me, but now I see I focused more on others and […]
I don’t know what to do… I thought that if I just stuck with it, keep pushing on, keep doing, keep my eye on the prize… I really thought I would get there. I really thought I would succeed. But now it’s all crumbling down around me, there’s no solid ground to stand on… I […]
The machinery is broken.. has seized up, or maybe… the engine’s burned out! I have no idea what happened to it, I’ve examined it and everything seems fine as far as I can tell, but honestly I have no idea what I’m looking at, or how to diagnose the problem. Everything seems to be in […]