When I started on this journey I had nothing, nothing but me, nothing but what I knew I could do and what I believed I could do… what I thought was possible… The possibility of what could be if I tried to strive for more… There’s treasure out there, somewhere out there, and I knew […]
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What’s the point anymore… I’m lost at sea… no stability, no anchor… I can’t imagine there’s anyone coming to help, to save me from myself, nothing can save me now. I don’t know what made me think I could do this… did I even have a choice? Now it seems I have no choices left […]
Sometimes when things get so bad my brain goes into a lull state, no thinking, no feeling, no nothing… I just am, am not… I’m here, I’m nowhere, I’m nothing, …forever lost in “Where?”
Hello… Is someone there? Do you see me? I heard some static… Is anyone hearing this? Hello…? Anyone out there? I’m not getting a clear signal… Hello… Helloo…
Grey… Blue… White… …and Blackness all around… Green… Purple… so beautiful… I see the whole spectrum
Am I stuck in a loop? A repeating pattern, back and forth, up and down, to and fro… it makes me sick to my stomach. The gears turn and turn, turbulence in sync with the beating of my heart, every breath I take, rolling, rolling, flipping over and over, folding into itself… Eventually it will […]
Will anyone ever think back to my story and say “How heroic!”? To live a path into this destruction, all for a treasure, a vision that may have never existed at all… What was that vision? I’m not sure anymore… Am I still on the path? The lines on the map have blurred… I’m only […]
When I sleep, I don’t dream anymore… my shipmate caught me sleeping at the wheel… I only tried to close my eye for a second… Dreams can, even when awake, be as sweet as wine… so drink them up… until there’s none left. Imagine an infinite supply… The drunken tales I would tell, if only […]
Another day rationing. Another day in the cold and wet. Fishing has not been fruitful. What was I thinking? Promises of better days are a lie in the present. Should I have come on this voyage? We have lost so many. So many. It is now just the captain and I. I man every station […]
Wounds don’t heal the same anymore… The salt keeps it clean… maybe that’s one benefit to all this? Scar tissue is tougher… Does madness bring clarity?
