My imposter syndrom has really been fucking with me lately. I mean who am I to be dreaming this big? Why do I think I’m qualified to do any of this? Who am I doing all of this for?

I thought it was for me, but now I see I focused more on others and left myself out in the storm, waves crashing, structure collapsing, mind lost in the abyss. Pennyless, helpless, falling apart from the inside out… Why am I doing this? What is it all for?

No one seems to care enough to support my efforts in this adventure, and although I feel like this is all being done for “community” I don’t see any support from the community. No one’s showing up to save me, no one cares…

I know everyones struggling, and that’s why I don’t hold it against anyone else but myself. I put me here! I made these decisions that led me to this place… Is it all my fault? Did I plot the wrong course? Where is all this leading?

Should I just give up?